Alright. can't stay oblivious to this blog any longer( not that I made any special attempt to do so yet! *phew* ). U know if you've been brought up with loved ones around U encouraging ya all the way, this sentence wouldn't be unfamiliar to you "Dream big. With will, there's a way". Not that am showing disapproval over this interjection..no way!! but I feel that with dreams come the fear of failing to achieve them. This is so because as hard as it is to build our dreams with utmost delicacy, its equally easy to see them shatter before our very own eyes. It can be very,very painful. Never had a personal hand at it but I can say its like the worst nightmare U can imagine. I truly admire those who dare to dream big, for the very reason that it requires a lot of courage and confidence which I see lacking in me. I know its not exactly a very good thing to announce one's weakness but by acknowledging them, I hope to learn & grow as a person,so that one day when I see light coming from the end of a tunnel, its not from a train but indeed illuminated from my "dreams turned into reality"! alright..accumulation of optimism here. ha!
U knwo I've always been afraid to tell others about what I dream for, coz am scared of being laughed and mocked at. I always thought "what if i failed to achieve them? what will others talk about me?" This was until I realised that people nowadays are much braver and stay true to themselves by being open to others regarding their dreams. But oh yes! I still hesitate.
But hereby, i shall announce what I truly dream for. I want to own an orphanage & ensure that no kid is ever deprived of good education, regardless of race, language or religion. But i realise that for my dream to materialise, I need to be a good role model myself so that others can have faith in me. Honestly, I myself wouldn't send my kids to someone who himself/herself isn't well-settled, not necessary in monetary terms but in social terms as well. Everyone wants their desires to be fulfilled but tell me, to how many in reality does that happen to? Its not just a question of being optimistic anymore, its about being practical...its about having in mind the kind of circumstances that we are facing currently. A leader must be practical & know what he's looking at. Likewise, when it comes to practicality(any such word?), dreams worry me a little. BUT....what I have to say to all U hunky-funky people out there is, each and everyone of you has got a great potential which certainly deserves to be tapped. So though U may encounter failures, don't EVER give up!! Dreams aren't just supposed to represent castles in the air(as what some think), they are supposed to be realised & become our destinies. Dreams are the hopes for a life which is truly ours. Though not all dreams may be materialised, its worth giving them your best. Don't be scared or worry about other's reactions, like I used to. If U chicken-out being afraid of anticipating failure, then i pity u. If u give ur best shot but fail, U're regarded as a hero in my eyes.
"You fail only when you have given up trying"
Cheers =D
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U knwo I've always been afraid to tell others about what I dream for, coz am scared of being laughed and mocked at. I always thought "what if i failed to achieve them? what will others talk about me?" This was until I realised that people nowadays are much braver and stay true to themselves by being open to others regarding their dreams. But oh yes! I still hesitate.
But hereby, i shall announce what I truly dream for. I want to own an orphanage & ensure that no kid is ever deprived of good education, regardless of race, language or religion. But i realise that for my dream to materialise, I need to be a good role model myself so that others can have faith in me. Honestly, I myself wouldn't send my kids to someone who himself/herself isn't well-settled, not necessary in monetary terms but in social terms as well. Everyone wants their desires to be fulfilled but tell me, to how many in reality does that happen to? Its not just a question of being optimistic anymore, its about being practical...its about having in mind the kind of circumstances that we are facing currently. A leader must be practical & know what he's looking at. Likewise, when it comes to practicality(any such word?), dreams worry me a little. BUT....what I have to say to all U hunky-funky people out there is, each and everyone of you has got a great potential which certainly deserves to be tapped. So though U may encounter failures, don't EVER give up!! Dreams aren't just supposed to represent castles in the air(as what some think), they are supposed to be realised & become our destinies. Dreams are the hopes for a life which is truly ours. Though not all dreams may be materialised, its worth giving them your best. Don't be scared or worry about other's reactions, like I used to. If U chicken-out being afraid of anticipating failure, then i pity u. If u give ur best shot but fail, U're regarded as a hero in my eyes.
"You fail only when you have given up trying"
Cheers =D
12:07 AM
Why does it seem that life's playing some sort of bad tricks on me? or is it just me?
Actually to think about it, nothing disatrous or totally devastating to the core has happened to me yet but nonetheless...its been equally miserable. Just a bunch of mood swings perhaps..but whatever-in-the-name-of-heaven it is, its yet another synonym to "misery". Am wasting away days 'coz in real fact, i am finding myself psychologically handicapped. Unable to concentrate, unable to think properly, unable to express myself and even unable to hold a proper conversation. Goodness! Whats Soo specifically wrong with me thats almost causing my brain to malfunction!?? Or is it simply me trying desperately to be a perfectionist so much and so that anything a level below that seems unacceptable!?
Actually sometimes I can have a good laugh at myself and the way I can tend to exaggerate things & make them sound so melodramatic..something like a typical script of some Hindi movie. But on the other hand, I feel like.."no. am being realistic, as compared to So many who are only idealistic". So penultimately, what should I pin the blame on? Myself-- for expecting too much out of myself OR circumstances -- for upsetting my sensitive nature in one way or another?? *pheww! trust me! am ONE confused soul! and thats NO good news coz when U appear so confused of yourself, how do U expect others to believe in you?
Anyway, these are just my feelings...nothing thats going to stay etched permanently. things change and my responses to these things are going to change likewise. So C'mon...do I again have to leave it all to the mighty painkiller---time!? My heart says so...
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Actually to think about it, nothing disatrous or totally devastating to the core has happened to me yet but nonetheless...its been equally miserable. Just a bunch of mood swings perhaps..but whatever-in-the-name-of-heaven it is, its yet another synonym to "misery". Am wasting away days 'coz in real fact, i am finding myself psychologically handicapped. Unable to concentrate, unable to think properly, unable to express myself and even unable to hold a proper conversation. Goodness! Whats Soo specifically wrong with me thats almost causing my brain to malfunction!?? Or is it simply me trying desperately to be a perfectionist so much and so that anything a level below that seems unacceptable!?
Actually sometimes I can have a good laugh at myself and the way I can tend to exaggerate things & make them sound so melodramatic..something like a typical script of some Hindi movie. But on the other hand, I feel like.."no. am being realistic, as compared to So many who are only idealistic". So penultimately, what should I pin the blame on? Myself-- for expecting too much out of myself OR circumstances -- for upsetting my sensitive nature in one way or another?? *pheww! trust me! am ONE confused soul! and thats NO good news coz when U appear so confused of yourself, how do U expect others to believe in you?
Anyway, these are just my feelings...nothing thats going to stay etched permanently. things change and my responses to these things are going to change likewise. So C'mon...do I again have to leave it all to the mighty painkiller---time!? My heart says so...
4:05 AM
Waiting for the dawn
Sonali
Glances here and there
and am left with no more desire to
look at anything else
seems as though bad omens are
strewn along my path
But how did the path
become misleading?
I chose it, cognizant
of Myself, My dreams
Forget about dreams
they appear like stars in the sky
twinkling away in glee
at our failure
hinting to us to stop
being unrealistic
But i told myself
I'll live this moment,
I'll live this day,
I'll live this life.
Joy I'll share,
grief I'll embrace
as life goes on
memories may fade
but this hope's going
to stay
and as the clock ticks by,
I'm still waiting for the dawn....
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Sonali
Glances here and there
and am left with no more desire to
look at anything else
seems as though bad omens are
strewn along my path
But how did the path
become misleading?
I chose it, cognizant
of Myself, My dreams
Forget about dreams
they appear like stars in the sky
twinkling away in glee
at our failure
hinting to us to stop
being unrealistic
But i told myself
I'll live this moment,
I'll live this day,
I'll live this life.
Joy I'll share,
grief I'll embrace
as life goes on
memories may fade
but this hope's going
to stay
and as the clock ticks by,
I'm still waiting for the dawn....
3:18 AM
yeshhhhhhhhhhhh!!!:D
We girls played rugby today! Contact rugby, not touch! woohoo!! At first I was like..."umm are we gals really gonna hit off well with this game known for its reputation of being "rough & tough"?) But really..it was thrilling. definitely exhausting but was quite fun to see SO many gals chase after ONE miserable ball! And I don't know why but whenever I did my part of getting in the crowd and try to get hold of the ball, I always happened to fall. I think my stablity's not stable(did that make sense?). I also scored but the thing is, I went out of the "alloted area" and then went between the 2 goalposts and banged the rugby ball onto ground...hehe! so yea..err that wasn't considered as a goal :P nevermind! the most important point is we all had fun! lots and lots of it. And it was pretty rejuvinating, esp since we were all half-awake before playing the game! It brought us back to our senses just like how it works when someone pours icy cold water onto your face. It was SO energy-consuming that within a few minutes into the game, I was panting . Really, I could have passed as an asthma patient. So breathless. Goodness sometimes it scares the daylights out of me.
I think when it comes to any sport, the best part of it is the aura of sportsmanship that the players have around themselves. Even if U've lost and are feeling a little down, when U see a player from the opponent team give U a multi-million dollar smile and pop a little Question like,"are U alright?", all your misery seems to evaporate. It feels even greater to be there for each other during the time when the game's being played and always have in mind that whether they are in the same team as you or not, they still ARE your friends. I used to think once upon a time that competitions make people become more distant, only to be proved wrong. Regardless of a win or loss, we feel contented that we participated instead of "chickening-out" and enjoyed ourselves. Isn't that what sports are all about?Passion. Passion to play, Passion to live it up.
So people, don't worry about winning. Just make your way to the sports field and have a blast ;)
[PS: oh yeah. I got a few bruises. haha but nevermind. it doesn't matter;) ]
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We girls played rugby today! Contact rugby, not touch! woohoo!! At first I was like..."umm are we gals really gonna hit off well with this game known for its reputation of being "rough & tough"?) But really..it was thrilling. definitely exhausting but was quite fun to see SO many gals chase after ONE miserable ball! And I don't know why but whenever I did my part of getting in the crowd and try to get hold of the ball, I always happened to fall. I think my stablity's not stable(did that make sense?). I also scored but the thing is, I went out of the "alloted area" and then went between the 2 goalposts and banged the rugby ball onto ground...hehe! so yea..err that wasn't considered as a goal :P nevermind! the most important point is we all had fun! lots and lots of it. And it was pretty rejuvinating, esp since we were all half-awake before playing the game! It brought us back to our senses just like how it works when someone pours icy cold water onto your face. It was SO energy-consuming that within a few minutes into the game, I was panting . Really, I could have passed as an asthma patient. So breathless. Goodness sometimes it scares the daylights out of me.
I think when it comes to any sport, the best part of it is the aura of sportsmanship that the players have around themselves. Even if U've lost and are feeling a little down, when U see a player from the opponent team give U a multi-million dollar smile and pop a little Question like,"are U alright?", all your misery seems to evaporate. It feels even greater to be there for each other during the time when the game's being played and always have in mind that whether they are in the same team as you or not, they still ARE your friends. I used to think once upon a time that competitions make people become more distant, only to be proved wrong. Regardless of a win or loss, we feel contented that we participated instead of "chickening-out" and enjoyed ourselves. Isn't that what sports are all about?Passion. Passion to play, Passion to live it up.
So people, don't worry about winning. Just make your way to the sports field and have a blast ;)
[PS: oh yeah. I got a few bruises. haha but nevermind. it doesn't matter;) ]
1:39 PM
Oh my God!!! Saddam Hussein and ME?? nonono am innocent..please hear me out :P haha. Alright am seriously flabberghasted! I guess it'll take some time to sink in...saddam hussein? muahahaha okay this is worrying me now..hmm hmm:-?
[PS: And since when is Saddam Hussein considered a famous leader???]
1:07 PM
Tamer and Hawk
Thom Gunn
I thought I was so tough,
But gentled at your hands,
Cannot be quick enough
To fly for you and show
That when I go I go
At your commands.
Even in flight above
I am no longer free:
You seeled me with your love,
I am blind to other birds?
The habit of your words
Has hooded me.
As formerly, I wheel
I hover and I twist,
But only want the feel,
In my possessive thought,
Of catcher and of caught
Upon your wrist.
You but half civilize,
Taming me in this way.
Through having only eyes
For you I fear to lose,
I lose to keep, and choose
Tamer as prey.
Whoa!! I love this poem! Look at the implicit message the author's trying to convey. We brainstormed what the poem was about and to our surprise, it turned out to be what we never expected. Just shows us that when we think, we aren't thinking wide enough to include all possiblities. Brilliant poem! So what do ya think it is about anyway?:p
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Thom Gunn
I thought I was so tough,
But gentled at your hands,
Cannot be quick enough
To fly for you and show
That when I go I go
At your commands.
Even in flight above
I am no longer free:
You seeled me with your love,
I am blind to other birds?
The habit of your words
Has hooded me.
As formerly, I wheel
I hover and I twist,
But only want the feel,
In my possessive thought,
Of catcher and of caught
Upon your wrist.
You but half civilize,
Taming me in this way.
Through having only eyes
For you I fear to lose,
I lose to keep, and choose
Tamer as prey.
Whoa!! I love this poem! Look at the implicit message the author's trying to convey. We brainstormed what the poem was about and to our surprise, it turned out to be what we never expected. Just shows us that when we think, we aren't thinking wide enough to include all possiblities. Brilliant poem! So what do ya think it is about anyway?:p
2:00 AM
Been pretty busy, and tired also. Had a mind-numbing headache today, right from when I woke up to until around 3 pm!! So of course I decided to have sufficient rest (and I think I had more than enough…) So anyway, woke up and been doing assignments etc since then. I was almost married to the dictionary today. I sincerely take my hats off to the people who compiled words together to form dictionaries…and on the other hand, I hate them too! They make me feel so dumb! My vocabulary’s SO limited!!!!! gosh!!
So yeah, was picking up some words here and there. It isn’t something that can be accomplished over a fortnight. Nearly impossible (coz as I was reminded, ‘impossible’ means scientifically not proven yet!!) But mastery of any language’s a highly-useful skill which’s in demand almost everywhere under the Sun. With a good grasp over the language, U can turn heads!! Well after all, pen IS mightier than a sword, isn’t it?
With good language skills, communication becomes much more vivid and clearer. We are better-equipped to express ourselves in a much more well-defined way and we know how to make use of appropriate linguistic devices to create the desired effects so that eventually, the decision’s made in our favour, esp when we are making speeches or writing for a specific targeted audience.
Lets say you are writing a complaint letter to certain authority, you must know how to make your letter concise and attention-catching so that it persuades the authority figures to resolve your problem as soon as possible. Its no point writing a lengthy letter with all the flowery language that you can probably think of, simply because no one in the world can afford to read such a long letter, except perhaps yourself. Thus, Language helps us in all aspects of life and helps us to patch up communication gaps.
So much and so said about language , I surely see a need to improve mine!!
Till next entry, see ya.
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So yeah, was picking up some words here and there. It isn’t something that can be accomplished over a fortnight. Nearly impossible (coz as I was reminded, ‘impossible’ means scientifically not proven yet!!) But mastery of any language’s a highly-useful skill which’s in demand almost everywhere under the Sun. With a good grasp over the language, U can turn heads!! Well after all, pen IS mightier than a sword, isn’t it?
With good language skills, communication becomes much more vivid and clearer. We are better-equipped to express ourselves in a much more well-defined way and we know how to make use of appropriate linguistic devices to create the desired effects so that eventually, the decision’s made in our favour, esp when we are making speeches or writing for a specific targeted audience.
Lets say you are writing a complaint letter to certain authority, you must know how to make your letter concise and attention-catching so that it persuades the authority figures to resolve your problem as soon as possible. Its no point writing a lengthy letter with all the flowery language that you can probably think of, simply because no one in the world can afford to read such a long letter, except perhaps yourself. Thus, Language helps us in all aspects of life and helps us to patch up communication gaps.
So much and so said about language , I surely see a need to improve mine!!
Till next entry, see ya.
1:34 PM
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4:39 AM
Hey!
forgot the username & password of the pervious blog (so smart of me!) so here I go...a new blog! =) yeah i hope it looks alright..i know its all grey and black..not exactly reflecting much onto happiness and joy & brighter prospects of life...but nevermind! its pretty energy+time-consuming and am fine with it for now:)
I think other than Pandu, noone knows about this blog...sigh! nevermind, I believe & am assured that one day, it will be world-famous...muahaha!:D
alright enough for now..will post messsages later. I still am yet to get a flooble chatterbox.! okay..one at a time....so cheers peeps & stay healthy ;)
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forgot the username & password of the pervious blog (so smart of me!) so here I go...a new blog! =) yeah i hope it looks alright..i know its all grey and black..not exactly reflecting much onto happiness and joy & brighter prospects of life...but nevermind! its pretty energy+time-consuming and am fine with it for now:)
I think other than Pandu, noone knows about this blog...sigh! nevermind, I believe & am assured that one day, it will be world-famous...muahaha!:D
alright enough for now..will post messsages later. I still am yet to get a flooble chatterbox.! okay..one at a time....so cheers peeps & stay healthy ;)
